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November 5, 2012

Figuring out life...I think.



I guess now would be an appropriate time to fill you in on my life. College life makes me such a bad blogger. Oops.

In a nutshell, I have been just living the life. Soccer finally came to a close, which I am not mad about. I actually have a taste of free time now. I started working regularly again; goodness I am so happy to be working. I have always been one of those odd people who likes to stay busy and work. Weird I know.

This past semester has taught me a lot about myself. I like the fact I am figuring out my place and meaning in this world. It’s a content feeling. Here is what I have discovered so far –

One. I am a pretty moody person and little things irritate me that probably shouldn’t. On the contrary, I am easily satisfied. It doesn’t take a whole lot to make me happy. I like being happy. Most importantly I can make myself happy. I have always considered myself a pretty independent girl, but it wasn’t until these past couple of months that I realized how independent I actually am. I don’t need anyone to be happy; a person does not define happiness. You, yourself, create your own definition of bliss.

Two. My family and friends are my biggest support system. Without them I would not be where I am today. Not until recently have I truly understood how much these people mean to me. I have found out who my friends are. When I was younger I loved being friends with everyone. Now, I have my friends, a select few, and that’s enough for me. My parents go above and beyond for me and their words of wisdom keep me pushing. My brothers and I have grown closer than ever, especially the relationship with my oldest brother. He is my best friend. My family always knew I had a curious soul that wanted to explore everything the world has to offer. I never thought I would be one to get homesick, but I find myself missing home more and more as the days go by. I think I realized that I am growing up and sooner than later; I will have my own place to call home. Until then, let me be homesick, stock up on toilet paper, have my mom do my laundry for every visit home.

Three. I have had a hell of a life. These past few years have been some of the best years of my life and I have made great memories. There is not one regret.

Four. I truly have no idea what I want to do with my life. After college, I don’t know what I want to do or where to go. This terrifies me.

Five. I have a wall a mile high that I force people to crawl over. For those that have endured the challenge, they found how big my heart is. Those people, I would do anything for.

Six. I hate doing dishes. And bills.